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Name: Sam
Location: Tallahassee, Florida, United States
Birthday: 7/3/1984
Gender: Male
Interests: I have many interests, but among the top of my list is my family, my friends, playing guitar, learning something new, playing videogames, watching movies, making and listening to music, and being a hopeless romantic with visions of a better tomorrow for myself and everyone else around me.
Expertise: I excel in thinking way too far into things. It can bug people, it can overwhelm me, but most importantly I find that it depresses me quite often.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Engineering
Message: message me
AIM:  bloodsuckingflea
Member Since:
6/3/2005
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| I know it's been an incredibly long time since last I posted on this
site. Life has once again spiraled into its previous chaotic state of
pressing deadlines and emotional roller coasters. I guess I'm too
introspective to ever feel as if my life is under control. I'm not
quite sure. I'm still interning, but now classes have started adding a
new layer of complication to my routine. Between working 30 hours a
week and this being my graduating semester, I don't really have time
for anything else, but I force things to the wayside to allow myself to
enjoy some free time. I don't really know what the repercussions of
these actions will be in the future, but I do so to keep my sanity.
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| This is where I stand politically:
Just thought I'd share it with everyone.
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| It's been over two months since I've written an entry and that's because I've been swamped witht the end of the semester, two jobs, and dealing with a bunch of graduation stuff, which I haven't even graduated yet. That will come in December. I don't think I'd be writing this entry today, but I heard news of a good friend, David Connelly, who passed away May 11th. I didn't hear about it until last night. It's true what they say. When you make a good friend that take a little piece of you with them. So when he passed away, I felt a small part of me die as well. He was a great guy, always smiling and never complaining. I only wish this was a horrible nightmare, but the truth of the matter is.... it's real. I've been trying to find myself over the past couple months amidst the totality of chaos in my life and I have been going through the days aimlessly. Well, not completely, because I still have responsibilities, especially now that I'm a working man. So, I get what I need to done, but I haven't really known what to do with my free time. I still play videogames, but I haven't been as into it as I used to. I've been listening to yahoo radio at my work since I don't have an iPod and I have over 70 gigs of music and don't feel like splurging on an external hard drive for my work. Anyway, I've read some of the bios of the artists I've been listening to. When I read the Chemical Brothers' bio I realized that I want to be performing music. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy what I'm doing now. I love being a structural engineer, but I still love music and creating a melody that is uniquely mine. Music which is shaped and formed into a canvas of emotions in notes, chords, arpeggioes, and pauses. I further found myself with the passing of my friend. I realized that I may not know what I should be doing, but that even if none of my friends are around that I can always be bettering myself. I've decided that I want to teach myself my native tongue, tagalog, and although the journey has been short and very frustrating, I still feel that it is worth the effort. My whole life I've been proud to be Filipino, but I still don't feel that I am living my cultural heritage. I feel almost like a fraud. So, since summer has started I've been finding myself, working my job 8 to 5 every weekday, playing my videogames when I feel like it, hanging out with old friends, creating music, and learning to enjoy just being alive, a lesson that took a tragic occurence for me to learn. I've started reading my bible again, something I haven't done in quite some time. You may not know it, but I'm a devote christian, I'm just not a very good one. I haven't been to service since winter break and I haven't picked the bible up in about as long and so as I find myself more I know that I am also finding God. | | |
| This post was to be reserved for what I did during spring break, but
instead the family curse has struck again. This curse is that for
everything that has to be done, it has to be done the hardest possible
way. If you don't believe me, check out the rut I am in currently. I
took Chem. I (CHM 1045) two years ago. Some secretary (my first
mistake) in the chemistry administrative office recommended (listening
to her, my second mistake) I reduce the credit hours so that it would
be cheaper (since I pay for college), so I went ahead and did so (three
strikes, I'm out). So, I found out a little while ago that there was a
discrepancy in my graduation check file online. It said that I still
needed to take CHM1045. I went to the student services advisor over at
the college of engineering today and asked about the problem. It was
because of that fucking credit hour reduction that this shit was
happening. He sent me over to the head of the department to talk about
a resolution with him. He told me that since it is an ABET (the
engineering accredidation board) mandate, that there was no way to
waive the requirement except to take another credit hour of chemistry.
All this shit because of the stupid fucking whore of a secretary, the
fact I even listened to her, and then following through with that shit.
Now I have to find a way to increase the credit hours back up to 4, see
if I can put the liberal arts chemistry credit towards this fiasco, or
see if I can take the CHM1045 lab over again to boost the credit
standing of the class back up to 4. I am currently speaking with the
head of the civil engineering department as well as the head of the
chemistry department to get this shit done. Missed three classes to
take care of this shit, still haven't gotten my registration form
signed because I don't know what I'm taking yet and now I'll have to do
that much more work. Great. Just fucking great. Life is going pretty
fucking peachy for me ever since I came back from spring break (which
was amazingly great), but has all but vanished from my mind with the
current chaos that is my life.
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| I'm finally done with hell week. No I'm not in a fraternity. I'm just an engineering major with far too much to do. I thought that I would have been done with all my work last afternoon at 4, but no I had to do an autoCAD drawing that was due at 5 pm this afternoon. I was caressed awake by the sounds of wrenches and hammers in the bathroom across the hall. I went to the front desk to check my mailbox and spent the rest of the day working on that damn autoCAD drawing. I didn't finish it on time. Finished it at about 5:40 pm. I spent a few minutes venting off on some pixelated characters in a game I like to call my addiction, otherwise known as Super Smash Bros. Melee. After that I went to eat at Pitaria with a few friends from staff and now I am working the desk here at Kellum with Heidie. It's actually been a decent amount of fun. So, tired though. Maybe tonight I'll finally get the sleep I've so badly needed. San Antonio and New Orleans this coming week! | | |
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